Drama + A Whole Lot of Emotions

Sry I'll be so emotional right now. Midterms just ended and GAD I'M TIRED. I'm tired of procrastinating and being irresponsible.

I've been so preoccupied that I couldn't handle things one at a time anymore. I don't know what to do first.



I haven't written on my red diary too. I miss it so bad.

School's been really stressing me out, not to mention the outside work for my upcoming event. It's so exhausting I wanna die already.


I'd do this if it wouldn't look too weird in public

People are stressing me out too. And pissing me off, annoying me...and all the stuff I wouldn't wanna tell you coz you have innocent eyes and minds lol.

Sometimes I just wanna tell these creatures to stfu and gtfo of my life because I just don't wanna see them or hear their voices anymore.

I feel down because they exist. I mean, their faces, their personalities, their everything just pisses me off!!!



And this is my blog. I promised it to be healthy but even the body needs bad bacteria sometimes. So BEEP to all of you ruining my life inside.

I miss high school.

From now on, I'll speak less. I'll show myself less. No more "hahaha"'s or "hihihii"'s on chat messages because I'd only be a hypocrite and a pretender. I'm not trying to be funny anyway.

I don't want attention. I just want appreciation for the things I do. I'm not trying to please anybody with a friendly disposition because I'm not even friendly. I just say 'hello' to people I know know know. You know? xD

Tho I think Hyndie would only be the person who'll pass the "Miss Congeniality" label because her friendly self has always been stuck in her veins. xD



Gosh, by typing Hyndie's name I suddenly miss Baby Boom.

See you guys soon! Or on Monday (8/29) on the 2nd Fivi day! Yay! Aren't you all excited?! Woooh!!



Kthnxbye!!

A Little Bit of the Bad Side

Our CAS Day is on the 10th of August, or so I've heard. We were assigned on the field we were most comfortable with (and I am not gonna mention it because if some readers know me in person, they probably know what contest we will be joining).

I'm pisssssed. Really pissed. My friend and I have been planning this the whole summer and I just couldn't get all the puzzle pieces yet.

We still lack a lot of things (not gonna mention again). A LOT. WE BADLY NEED A LOT OF THINGS CURRENTLY aside from practice hours which have to be so demanding vs. class hours.

This really sucks. CAS Day's a week away and if I look at everything at a far distance, it looks like a tiny speck of dust.

I want everything to be perfect, which leads into frustration (ikr?!).

I just want people to cooperate like this is going to be the last days of their lives. Well, maybe I'm the only one who has that view on things right now. Because this is my first time (well, OUR first time in this kind of activity), I don't want it to be the last time either.

Our head has watched the thing we'll be doing and she said she's gonna take care of the makeup and stuff because we don't have enough funds to sustain all the needs of the participants.

I just wish everyone would really do their best. Because I will do my best too, and I will help them.

I don't want this to have a crappy ending. I don't want to expect, nor do I want to assume something. Hnnnngggg. This feeling is just so disturbing already I couldn't help myself anymore.

I'm just really pissed. That's all. Kthnxbye~