Drama + A Whole Lot of Emotions

Sry I'll be so emotional right now. Midterms just ended and GAD I'M TIRED. I'm tired of procrastinating and being irresponsible.

I've been so preoccupied that I couldn't handle things one at a time anymore. I don't know what to do first.



I haven't written on my red diary too. I miss it so bad.

School's been really stressing me out, not to mention the outside work for my upcoming event. It's so exhausting I wanna die already.


I'd do this if it wouldn't look too weird in public

People are stressing me out too. And pissing me off, annoying me...and all the stuff I wouldn't wanna tell you coz you have innocent eyes and minds lol.

Sometimes I just wanna tell these creatures to stfu and gtfo of my life because I just don't wanna see them or hear their voices anymore.

I feel down because they exist. I mean, their faces, their personalities, their everything just pisses me off!!!



And this is my blog. I promised it to be healthy but even the body needs bad bacteria sometimes. So BEEP to all of you ruining my life inside.

I miss high school.

From now on, I'll speak less. I'll show myself less. No more "hahaha"'s or "hihihii"'s on chat messages because I'd only be a hypocrite and a pretender. I'm not trying to be funny anyway.

I don't want attention. I just want appreciation for the things I do. I'm not trying to please anybody with a friendly disposition because I'm not even friendly. I just say 'hello' to people I know know know. You know? xD

Tho I think Hyndie would only be the person who'll pass the "Miss Congeniality" label because her friendly self has always been stuck in her veins. xD



Gosh, by typing Hyndie's name I suddenly miss Baby Boom.

See you guys soon! Or on Monday (8/29) on the 2nd Fivi day! Yay! Aren't you all excited?! Woooh!!



Kthnxbye!!

The Consequences of a Pig

I thought I was gonna die. No, seriously. I thought it would be the end of my life. I was busily opening a pack of junk food when I accidentally spilled Yakult on my laptop keyboard.



The scenario is still clear in my mind. I saw how the liquid flowed inside the internal parts of the laptop, causing the monitor to stop working.

My mom immediately accompanied me to where we bought it and the technicians were really surprised at my irresponsibility. They told me that physical damage caused by the owner would void the 12-month warranty. It was death!!



I did all kinds of voodoo stuff and chant in order to fix it. I placed it in front of the electric fan because Mr. Technician said I should let it dry for a while and see what happens.

The Good News

After our Walk for Healing today, and after hearing Mass too, my mom texted me that my laptop is okay again..

It was a Healing Mass I attended, so maybe it 'healed' my laptop through my prayers! I'm so happy! I want to thank God so much!



Actually I was planning to scrap (if it's a verb? idk) it so that I could still have money and just buy a notebook computer instead.

But as what the proverb in Philippine Literature states "Kung swerte mo gid ya, makadto gid na sa imo," which means "If it's your fate, it will surely come."

Maybe my laptop wasn't ready to leave me yet; it's only 8 months old and it doesn't want to miss the second Fivi Day! Right, laptop?!

I love you so much, Mr. Laptop. Don't ever leave me again, okay?



I feel sick I don't know why. More exciting events this September because it's University Week again!

Though before that, I have to face the wrath of Midterm exams first. Heehee. ❤

Self Blame + Almost There

You aren't happy with the role that your friends have put you in now and you're not sure how to get out of it. There are no quick and easy solutions to your dilemma, even if you are in touch with the group dynamics at play. You may be tempted to internalize another person's struggle and treat it as if it were your own. However, it's smarter to just steer clear of any melodrama that isn't yours. Don't worry about disappointing others; they'll get over it sooner than you think.
Via Twittascope

I srsly don't know how to start this post.

Today, our College of Arts and Sciences day ended with a blast (well, not for my department).

I joined the Group MTV Contest together with my friends and we chose the song Heart to Heart by 4Minute.

We grabbed different awards from different contests. In some we placed last, others first, second and third.

The bad part? I (or we?) put all the effort and hard work on that Group MTV presentation. I even agreed to waste money on those three stands for our 'highlight' props.

I was already running late that afternoon. Inside the cab, I was begging the driver to hurry up. I wanted to fly so fast that time.



I kept on talking to God loudly. "Lord, if this is for me, you'll let it happen right?! Right?!" I was nearly mad. God, I'm sorry.

But maybe God said no. He didn't let it happen at all. We drove to the shortest routes possible but traffic, parking cars and people all existed as hindrances.

IT WASN'T FOR ME. NOT YET.

If I wasn't strong enough, I would've broken down when we were announced as second place. We got minus 2 points from each judge because I was late. I, who did a lot of hard work for that presentation.

So instead of sulking or mourning or anything that wouldn't even help me with this frustration (and depression perhaps), I'll just eat!

Haha. Okay. That laugh was not even real. There will be no "better luck next time", because next time, I will work harder.

And that's what God wants, right, God? (feeling close much?)

As promised, a post (or a rant and complain?). xD I love you all!

A Little Bit of the Bad Side

Our CAS Day is on the 10th of August, or so I've heard. We were assigned on the field we were most comfortable with (and I am not gonna mention it because if some readers know me in person, they probably know what contest we will be joining).

I'm pisssssed. Really pissed. My friend and I have been planning this the whole summer and I just couldn't get all the puzzle pieces yet.

We still lack a lot of things (not gonna mention again). A LOT. WE BADLY NEED A LOT OF THINGS CURRENTLY aside from practice hours which have to be so demanding vs. class hours.

This really sucks. CAS Day's a week away and if I look at everything at a far distance, it looks like a tiny speck of dust.

I want everything to be perfect, which leads into frustration (ikr?!).

I just want people to cooperate like this is going to be the last days of their lives. Well, maybe I'm the only one who has that view on things right now. Because this is my first time (well, OUR first time in this kind of activity), I don't want it to be the last time either.

Our head has watched the thing we'll be doing and she said she's gonna take care of the makeup and stuff because we don't have enough funds to sustain all the needs of the participants.

I just wish everyone would really do their best. Because I will do my best too, and I will help them.

I don't want this to have a crappy ending. I don't want to expect, nor do I want to assume something. Hnnnngggg. This feeling is just so disturbing already I couldn't help myself anymore.

I'm just really pissed. That's all. Kthnxbye~

I Wanna Cry Over My Exam Papers

The exams were so freakin' easy only if I studied hard enough. I got a lot of B's, a B+ an A and an A- and the other results are still to come. I wanna die!!!

This is my first time getting a B on my Religion class. I must do better! This is so disappointing and frustrating :'(



I tried to look for new ways of studying because I procrastinate a lot. So I decided to study at a very early hour and ended up sleeping.

My way of studying is the nocturnal way. I study at 11PM (srsly lol) and sleep at 2AM. I freakin' wake up at 6 in the morning. And I'm glad the stuff I've studied are still stuck in my head.

But there was an exam day where we had 4 exams in a row!

A week before, our Religion teacher failed to discuss the last lesson for the first unit so we expected that it wouldn't come out in the test.

You know what happened next.


You could imagine me like this. Cramming.

Okay. Enough.

Well, exam week is finished and it felt like the first day of school. Way back during our exam week, my friends and I didn't have enough time to hang out and chill.

Our Arts&Sciences day are nearing (August 12-14) and we were chosen to join the --- not yet gonna tell you! I might have spies here lol~ (for safety precautions xD)

So anyhoo, hope you all have a great day!

I Know How To Act?

Next week will be exam week, so the teachers are now piling up soooo many activities and quizzes because it's the last week for prelims.

I'm STRESSED.

I wanted to blog today because I have a lot of things to type. Yes, most of them are school problems. Not about my grades but about the people around me, excluding my friends.

Number one, the tension around mini groups in the classroom.

I guess my Humanities teacher is right, there's tension between the students. We may be blockmates and all, but you wouldn't be 'in' if you don't belong to a certain circle.

Yeah, there's competitions between these little circles. Right people and Left people always compete.

Number two, the insect.

I hope none of my classmates find this! LoL. Well yeah, there will always be that one person whom everyone, yes I mean everyone, hates. And it's a SHE.

That's about it. I just find these things really irritating, aside from being challenging.

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Today we had a mini theater activity for our Philippine Literature subject and it's entitled "Aswang" (evil vampire-like creature; combination of vampire and witch and are almost always female).

When I read the whole story, it wasn't really an Aswang. HE is just somewhat an aswang. He raped his children and grandchild dammit. And I was one of the children unfortunately raped LOL.

It was the first ever all out crying scene I ever made on stage (without tears!). It was so fun because all of us were interested in theater and my groupmates careered their characters. I couldn't even believe the ever modest Nick turned into a rapist. HAHAHAHAHA

It was so fun, though our group lost to the second group who exaggeratedly prepared closed-curtain introductions. Whatever. We won the Spanish review anyway lol why am I so evil like this?!

That's it for now! Need to study coz I sucked today hnnggg

Next week is exam week so don't expect a post. Ciao!

Even The Busy Days

Even busy days find time to relax. LoL. It's a Sunday and I'm not really happy about it. School's starting again in about 14 hours to be exact.

I have so many quizzes and I'm procrastinating again.



Posting images because I don't know what to blog anymore. Credit weheartit on that. They have awesome photos. I want a camera too :c

I received my yearbook yesterday, and I'm happy that it has my name on it. It's customized and I find it very cool. Though I regret not wearing anything K-pop on my casual wear. I blame mom! Haha! She said my year was filled with too much k-pop that even just for my yearbook, I should wear a decent outfit.

Fail~~ I regret it ;_;

So another photo. Yeah, my life is empty.



But still, this week's Khuntoria episode is jjang! I laughed hard because of 2PM. The atmosphere just gets more fun when they're there. Let's put our hands up, put our hands up, ppp-put our hands up for 2PM~ aah, they are so awesome.

Hello July

Let's welcome July with positive energies! Well, I have to do that because our Prelim examinations are gonna be on the 18th!

Time passes by so fast. I feel old already. One month to go and I will officially be old.

I've been really busy with school nowadays... doing the same routine everyday. I feel like my complexion has darken too, because I walk like one kilometer (or am I exaggerating?) so that I wouldn't have to take two rides home for lunch.

*brb pissed with facebook*

*back*

Okay. So yes, I am still pissed with facebook haha. I'm chatting with my manager PD-unnie Chaerin, planning for our next performance...or should I say, Baby Boom TV Season 3.

I'm really not that excited, I'm pressured actually. This will be my first ever produced event loljk! I will be in charge of everything; from the design of the place to the whole program itself. Gyaah, I'm so nervous.

But I'm not telling you yet till it's done~ It's a surprise! (for some~)

I'm still busy right now so I'll end this post here. kthnxbye~!!

Little Long Days

School works. Lots of school works! But today is a happy day because our school is celebrating it's 50th year as a Recollect university. Last Monday was a holiday too! So many no-class days is awesome~~

But we have a lot of assignments too~~ my favorite subject is Earth Science because our teacher doesn't even care if we eat inside the class or text and talk. Our lesson goes round and round because... I don't know what's wrong with her o.O

I've also watched the latest episode of Steins;Gate woohooo! Here are some spoilers and screencaps!










The blush! The blush!


He thought she had a fever because she was saying nonsense! (which were obviously polite words that she doesn't usually say)




Mayuri's death was tragic. Darn that Moeka girl.

To forget about that sadness during Mayuri's death, I looked for SunTop (Sun Ye -wonder girls- and TOP -bigbang-) pictures because I ship them like a crazed fan girl! They are just so drop dead perfect~ imho.

I found this!


Is that even Sun Ye? idk. looks like her tho.

I dreamed about Choi Seung Hyun becoming my brother too! Omg, he'd make a good brother~ I touched his hands and they were really coooold o.O and his voice was so cool and calm...and he looked cute while he was asleep..




Rest well and make your fans happy elder brother!


bye with love!

Good Things Come To An End

Darn. Two weeks was too short. My Dad's going back to Brunei (his workplace) and I won't be seeing him for the next six months of my life. He wouldn't even be on my 18th-I-turn-legal-birthday.

But it's okay. I have to thank God and his boss for allowing him to visit us even just for a short while. I only wish that time comes when I'd be the one to visit him there and he could tour me all over the place.

I think that would be a lot of fun. I will surely miss you, Dad. Mom and I aren't going on that Manila trip on June 2 because she didn't want to see Dad off. It would be heartbreaking.

Hello, mom.
We sure did a lot of things during his stay. And I've noticed a lot of changes with my father lately. He's become...young at heart? Well they say the fun begins at forty...or something like that idk. /*gets shot

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He knows how to go with my flow lulz
I don't want to end this sadly so I'm putting up an announcement since the month of May is already ending. What does that mean? It means, classes in the Philippines will be starting again!

I will be a sophomore in college now and there's nothing to be excited about it.

Anyways, I've been working on my June skin lately but I'm afraid everyone would still wait a bit longer for its release (like that's worth waiting?). Maybe mid-June or something? I still haven't finished some important parts though the layout, navigations and overall presentation are done. /*feels weird saying that

So yeah, it's probably just a traditional change-of-skin month or something like that. Anyhoo, I thank everyone for reading (and following) my blog! Thanks for all the tags but the spams do irritate me a bit.


Caramel and Choco frappes from our family day-outs. Yumm


Randomly wrote this while waiting for the ordered food lulz


Let's end with confetti

아나요?

School's starting in a few weeks and I still haven't done anything memorable this summer. Well, maybe having a forum family is something worth keeping. But I miss those times when we chatted during the wee hours of the morning (in my time zone tho).

It was really fun.

I hope we could go back to those days. I can't believe RaNia's PD's are saying bye bye to them now. We all have to move on. RaNia, I'm always gonna be a fan! 화이팅~

So how's everyone doing? I really don't know what to blog right now because I'm just bored. See? Nothing productive in my pockets.

Sistar19's Ma Boy has been playing on repeat for the nth time now.

Wanna tell you my dream? It goes this way:

I was in a beach (maybe this was the result of reading a yahoo news where a lake turned into salt in Iran) with my family. There was a shark and it was really scary! I was swimming here and there but the shark was like swimming around us. I don't really know if I was with my family in the first place because I saw them when I found myself sitting by the shore after the shark thing.

Then I forgot what's next. Haha.

I hope you all have a good day. I'm still looking for the good in mine.