It was one sad 
'first day of school'. My class was at 9am and too bad I didn't get any sleep. I didn't sleep at all!
I filled myself with coffee so that I could stay awake but the effect wasn't long lasting. My head started to ache in the middle of our English lecture
. It was BORING. I met new faces. VERY new faces. 
They were all from different schools and I was the only one who came from UNOR.There were two girls whom I talked to. They were friendly, I guess. But then I told myself that I couldn't be 'friends' with them
. I could see that they were already contented being together (just the two of them). I tried to talk to the others but they were like "Yes. Ah. Ikaw ya. Ah. Okay.." then they didn't talk to me again 
. It was really awkward. I knew NO ONE
. There was a short activity during English class--it was to give your name then an adjective.
I am Phoebe. I am dorky.
That was my sentence. Everyone in our group had difficulties pronouncing my name and the adjective
. You are Febie. You are derky.
I kept giving them corrections on how to pronounce them properly...especially dorky not derky
. But it's okay...I understood.But I still had no permanent friends
. Maybe because it's my first day so it's a bit awkward...or almost really awkward. But I envy those people who get to have friends easily 
. I looked weird on my get up (posting a pic later). I sounded strange especially during the derky thing and the "Do you like Kpop?" or the "Do you blog?" questions. I really don't know how to get along with people my age. Sheesh 
.My heart
was beating really fast and I wanted to cry because I was all alone 
. I kept hugging my bag 
like a little girl who was very lonely 
. I tried to smile 
but everyone was so dot dot dot 
.In our Filipino class every girl was reciting when our teacher asked about "Wika". Well, you know me don't you? I don't do those recitation things
. They thought I was Korean
so they didn't talk to me. It was good that they thought I was Korean but it was sad to think that they didn't even want to talk to me 
!!!Sorry for emoting so much, blog
. This is the only way I could pour out my feelings. Heee.I'm gonna sleep now. Thanks for listening. You could comment and share your feelings too. =(
4 comments:
aww. honey. its okay! everything would be fine soon. its natural to feel lonely and scared at first days. maybe in a couple of weeks youll get the hang of it and actually hve fun.
my first day in college is sad too, though i know some people already. i still cant help but cry. i cried for a week i guess. but then again im a crybaby.. and weird.
basta. be strong. and smile. that will make people around you see that you are actually fun to be with :)
aww, don't be sad! cheer up for your first day! :D try to make a new friend ^^
nah~ it's okay:D it's only your 1st day you'll make friends sooner or later^O^ anyway do you belong on a block section? coz' if you are then chances are high since you're always together with your classmates^_^ Though I made friends faster today (my 1st day in college too) that's because I was with some of my old classmates so I was a bit confident, don't worry that's pretty normal esp~ when you don't have someone with you:D all I can suggest for you is always smile when approaching them & have that friendly aura in yours^O^
i have nothing to comment but then i could like to say ur blog is awesome
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